Session Start: Tue Aug 19 23:08:02 2003
Session Ident: #Taw
* Logging #Taw to 'logs\EsperNet\#Taw.20030819.log'
<DeathStar> Session 95: Little Tidbits
<DeathStar> Time Chart: October 10th, 2222
<DeathStar> Location: Altros, In Mid Flight
<Ayn> NRP: that is one day before ayn's brithday!
* Ayn sits on the bridge, looking out at the wastelands that they fly over. She smiles, her hand touching the viewscreen, as if she could touch the sand
* Dahok sits on the viewing deck, looking out the massive window into the wastelands
<Dahok> It's so peaceful for once.
* Ayn pulls a recorder from her coat jacket, and whispers into it, "The world's moved on." She pockets the recorder again, as if satisfied, and grabbing her guitar, she heads off the bridge.
*** Garland has quit IRC (Quit: What makes one 'alive'? Is it nothing more than a sustained chemical reaction? Or is it having a soul?)
*** DeathStar is now known as Ire
* Ire sits in his quarters, in the dark.
* Ayn walks for Ire's quarters, singing softly to herself, "I ain't sorry, don't think that. I'll pretend that you ain't changed, don't worry about me, I'll see you when I get there...."
* Ire sits on his bed, leaning against the wall. He tilts his head towards the doorway, as if hearing something.
* Ayn knocks on his door, finally.
<Ire> It's unlocked.
* Ayn opens the door, and slips in, holding the guitar, "Why didn't you tell me humans had the most powerful thing in the known universe?"
<Ire> And what is that?
<Ayn> Rock and Roll.
<Ire> ...
* Ayn sounds completely serious, "Ire, I have been moved to tears, I have been sent to laughter, and I have been healed, and hurt, all through the music files I was going through."
<Ire> ... Alright. *he says simply.*
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* Ayn blinks, and looks around, "....why are you sitting in the dark?"
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<Dahok> NRP: Ire: So I can masterbate with out people seeing me.
* Ire turns away to look at another wall.
<Ire> I find it comforting.
* Ayn sets the guitar down and without invitation, sits besides Ire on the bed. "And the wall is more asthetically appealing then a woman?" She cocks her head, her eyes concerned, "What's wrong? Something sure as hell is."
<Ire> I'm fine. *the same old tired excuse he's given for half a year.*
* Ayn shakes her head, silently. She then scrambles up onto the bed, and crawls around him so she's facing him, inches from his face, "I thought we weren't going to lie to each other, and be a team."
<Dahok> So lonely without hearing her voice...
<Ayn> NRP: We know Dahok wants Ayn.
* Ire narrows his eyes on her. "What I think and feel has no baring on what the group is doing."
<Dahok> NRP: I said her voice, not it's voice.
<Vile> NRP: Ouch.
<Ayn> Nr
<Ayn> NRP: lol
* Ayn gives him a soft look, "No, no it doesn't." She stays there still, looking at him, "There comes a time when you must admit things though Ire, and its time to admit, you're as broken as I am."
<Ire> I've never denied such a thing.
<Vile> NRP: o/~ It's more than a feeling....more than a feeling, when I hear that old song they used to plaaaaaay....o/~
<Ayn> Then what's wrong?
<Ire> Nothing.
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* Ayn looks to him, silently. She doesn't buy it one bit.
* Ire keeps a neutral expression. He doesn't even seem bothered.
* Dahok kicks his feet up on a chair and leans his head back
* Ayn sighs softly, and speaks softly, "Can I be honest with you?"
<Ire> If you want.
<Ayn> All I want to do right now is kiss you, and make whatever hurts you better.
* Ire shows emotion for the first time. Pure confusion. He looks at her.
<Dahok> NRP: SCORE AYN'S A WHORE BAIT!
<Vile> NRP: . o O {Alright...play it cool...} *drops his pants* . o O {Sexcellent.}
<Ayn> NRP: lol
<Ire> I don't think Pope would approve.
* Ayn nods slowly, and looks to Ire, "I don't think he can say anything about that right now since he and I aren't on good terms."
<Ire> I see.
* Ayn looks to him for any sign of emotion.
<Vile> NRP: Dammit. I was hoping she'd fall for Jerry. No really, I was. Stop laughing.
<Ayn> NRP: lol, she snogged with Jake!
<Vile> Nrp: FIGNUTS!
* Ire is displaying nothing again. He just looks straight ahead.
* Ayn sighs, and looks down, "I figured this is how'd it turn out. I should have kept my mouth shut, right?"
* Ire glances at her. 1"You spoke your mind. Nothing wrong with that, I suppose."
* Dahok eye's cloths and he suddenly starts snoring as he falls asleep
<Dahok> NRP: close...close...
* Ayn looks up, "I just told you something very important, and you barely responded to it. Perhaps...." She sighs, "I was just hoping you'd let your walls down for one moment, so I could see you again."
<Ire> That's not who I am. And that's why you should just give up on the idea.
<Vile> NRP: Jerry still has a chance, then!
<Ayn> There was a moment I saw all of you.... We were on a roof top.... and you were keeping me from falling.... *she looks to him, as if she's still not sure if it even happened* Tell me it wasn't a dream.
<Ire> ...
* Ire glances down.
<Ire> No, it wasn't.
* Ayn sighs, and closes her eyes, ".... it wasn't?"
<Ire> It wasn't.
* Ayn opens her eyes and looks at him, "I wasn't sure. It seemed so real, but it's hazy too. All I remember is that you caught me, and that's all you seem to do."
<Ire> I'm always there to lend a hand.
<Ayn> But only a hand.
* Ire says nothing. He glances at her out of the corner of his eye.
* Ayn says nothing either, but lays down beside him, curling up on the bed. She finally looks to him, and asks softly, "Can I stay here?"
* Ire looks as if he's going to say no, but just leaves the word on the tip of his tongue, then closes his mouth. "If you want."
* Ayn closes her eyes, ".....thank you..." She uses her arms as pillows, "..... These nights on the Altross have been so lonely. I've never been without people. Even in the wastelands, Ire, we stayed together...."
<Ire> .... *just lets her speak, saying nothing*
<Ayn> You'd like it there, good people, hard working people. They were on a crusade to survive.... *she smiles* I miss them.
<Ire> Then why not go back?
Session Close: Wed Aug 20 00:00:00 2003

Session Start: Wed Aug 20 00:00:00 2003
Session Ident: #Taw
<Ayn> Becuase I've made a promise to you.
<Ire> You should do what's best for you.
* Ayn opens her eyes, and looks to him, "What's best for me is to be there when you need to be caught."
* Ayn laughs, "Besides, I want to be a knight of the round table."
<Ire> I wouldn't buy much of what that McCormick fellow said. And I don't need anyone around to catch me. I'm fine.
<Ayn> Ire, you're sitting in the dark, staring at the wall while what has been called a beautiful woman is laying in your bed. Even where I come from, that's not okay.
* Ire glances at her, almost sternly.
<Ire> I choose the pass my time in this manner.
<Ire> (to pass)
* Ayn nods slowly "I know...."
* Ire holds the stare for a moment, then looks back atthe wall.
* Ayn sighs softly, "Ire, I can't leave because I think I love you in one way or another.... And I know you can't feel the same. You have your causes, you have Tikal's memory."
* Ire 's lips twitch ever so slightly at the mention of Tikal. He glances at her with a sidelong glance.
* Ayn whispers, "I just tell it to you how I see it."
* Ire turns away. "Staying around just because you feel something for someone and knowing they won't return it is a very poor choice for staying. You'll just end up regretting it."
<Ayn> I've made worse decisions for better reasons. *she shrugs slightly* Besides, I have no place to go.
<Vile> NRP: You could go to Jerry!
<Ayn> NRP: lol
<Ire> NRP: Jaaaake! Jake!
<Ire> What about the people in the wasteland?
<Ayn> Would you take back someone who left you to the wasteland? No, they left and scattered like the sand. While the wasteland is my true home, I can't go back there, not yet.
<Ire> I see.
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* Ayn looks to Ire, "Why are you still here?"
<Ire> It's the path I've chosen for myself.
<Ayn> Why have you chosen a path with little solace?
<Ire> ...
<Vile> NRP: . o O {Too big a word...quick! Say something!} "HORSESHIT!" . o O {Smooth.}
* Ayn looks to Ire, and then slides up the bed, giving him plenty of room, "you should sleep. The day is long."
<Ire> No. I will stay up.
*** Sherinmir is now known as Sherin-Sleepin
* Ayn yawns slightly, "...then good night Ire....." She closes her eyes, still giving him plenty of room in which they wouldn't touch.
* Ire sits there, as if waiting for to go to sleep.
* Ayn does indeed fall into a light sleep.
* Ire stands, almost totally silent and steps out into the hallway. He closes the door shut behind him.
* Ayn opens her eyes for a moment as the door shuts, the click soft in her ears, and then rolls to face the wall and just watches the darkness against it
* Ire walks away from the room.
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* Pope` stands a little father down the hall, smoking as he leans against the wall
* Ire stops when he's across from Pope, glancing at him.
* Pope` exhales, releasing a large, billowing haze. "Rough night?"
<Ire> For some of us. *he says, glancing back at his room*
* Pope` glances down, then back at Ire
<Ayn> NRP: Ire is going to play matchmaker!
<Ire> NRP: Pfft.
<Pope`> Take my room, it's empty. I sure as 'ell ain't gettin' any sleep tongiht.
<Vile> NRP: I sense a threesome on the horizen..
* Ire nods. "Thank you. I'm going up to get some air right now, though. Good night, Pope." He begins to walk up the stairs. Of course, what did he mean by getting some "air" when the Altros is moving, who knows.
* Ayn steps out of Ire's room, and leans against the wall, looking up at the ceiling.
* Ayn glances to Pope, and then sighs softly.
* Pope` smokes silently
<Ayn> Pope....
<Pope`> Ayn.
<Ayn> Do you still hate em?
<Pope`> 'Ate you? Bloody 'ell, no.
<Ayn> Mad at me then?
<Pope`> 'Onestly don't matter to me anymore, luv.
* Ayn looks at him hopefully. "What does that mean?"
* Pope` turns slightly to Ayn. "It means that what we 'ad is gone, Ayn. You saw to that."
<Vile> nrp: british prick! You invented the damn language! SPEAK IT!
<Ayn> ....that was an accident in MegaCity. I couldn't control myself - no one could. I'm sorry, I'm damn sorry about that.
<Ire> NRP: I note she left off that *IRE* did!
<Ayn> NRP: Ire is a loser
<Ire> NRP: You're mean.
<Kimera> NRP: Honest though
<Vile> NRP: Fuck and make up, you two.
<Pope`> Luv, we've been through this before. We've been through brainwashin' before and overcome it. This timeshouldn't 'ave been different. Maybe it just brought out somethin' deeper.
* Ayn looks to him, "No, we weren't through brainwashing. I was. It was all me. It was me, and Ire caught me. I still don't remember it all - it's still a bloody haze.
<Pope`> And the first time Senreich caught us?
<Ayn> She takes a step closer to Pope, "And you weren't there. You don't know what it was like. Ask anyone in Megacity that day. No one but Ire could control themselves. I don't know how he managed it...." She sighs, "It was like inside I hated myself for doing that, but my body...."
* Pope` steps back, putting his hands up
<Pope`> No, Ayn, we ain't playin' that.
<Ayn> playing what?
* Pope` motions to Ire's room
<Pope`> I 'eard what you were sayin' to him in there.
<Pope`> So don't fool me a wanker.
<Ayn> Aren't you humans the first to claim all those different kinds of love?
* Pope` shakes his head. "First mistake, luv, you assume we're all the same."
<Ayn> No, I don't.
<Pope`> You do. Generalizations, Ayn, dangerous liasons.
* Ayn gives him an angry look, "Fine, I get it. you don't want me anymore.. I'll fucking deal."
<Vile> NRP: Jerry is SO in.
<Ayn> NRP: more like celibacy
<Ire> NRP: Jake, man!
<Vile> NRP: BUT JERRY IS A 33 YEAR OLD VIRGIN! TAKE PITY ON THE MAN FOR GOD'S SAKE!
<Ire> NRP: Jake is funny.
<Vile> nrp: Pshaw.
* Pope` shrugs
<Ayn> NRP: Ayn is so going to become the next Kurt Cobain. Or Cortney Love
<Pope`> If that's what you wanna believe, Ayn, I can't stop you.
<Vile> NRP: She's gonna shoot herself?!
* Pope` flicks the rest of his cigarette away and turns, walking away
* Ayn calls out, "How many fucking times do I have to say I'm sorry?"
<Pope`> Until you believe it yourself. *keeps walking and disappears down the corridor*
* Ayn sighs, and grabs her guitar, "fuck this.... " She looks to her instrument, and walks to the observation lounge.
<Ire> GM: *As she walks, the ladder leading up to the roof of the Altros seems to have been used, as the hatch up at the top is open*
* Ayn doesn't bother to investigate. She enters the lounge and begins to play the guitar angrily. She's actually damn good. She sings loudly, "Come on try alittle, nothing is forever, there's got to be something better then in the middle!"
* Ayn rocks her head back and forth as she plays, her body becoming one with the notes as she sways.
<Ire> GM: *and so the time passes, as the Altros flies on in the night*
* Ayn hasn't stopped playing, her notes angry and true
*** Ire is now known as DeathStar
*** Ayn is now known as Ellie
*** Pope` has quit IRC (Quit: Fuck the fuck you in the history of the fuck.)
*** Ellie is now known as Ayn
* Ayn sets the guitar down, a thought in her head. She leaves the room, and heads up the ladder, onto the roo
<Ayn> NRP: roof
*** DeathStar is now known as Ire
* Ayn glances around, looking for a place to put a transciever, or to see who else is up there
<Ire> GM: *as she nears the top, a low, deep voice - definitely male - is singing some type of song that's not well known. The wind, especially rough this night, whips the words around where they're hard to hear at points.
* Ayn smiles, and begins walking towards the voice, lightly less not be heard.
* Ire stands at the edge of the Altros, dangerously close to the edge. Perhaps symbolic, perhaps not, he looks down at the ground as they fly over, ignoring the wind whipping around him, blowing his hair around.
* Ayn also tries to hear the words.
<Vile> Nrp: o/~ I'm missing you like Caaaaandy! O/~
<Ire> GM: *the lyrics seem to speak of a better time, a better place, and a person waiting for them there, waiting for their loved one to come home. Most of it can't be made out*
* Ayn tucks her hair behind her ears, and then lets the wind blow it out again. She smiles softly, just listening to Ire sing.
* Ire adds a tinge of sadness to the song. Maybe the song called for it, or maybe, over the years, it developed into a sad melody for him. Either way, it's obvious his inner feelings be projected into the song. And, just as suddenly, he stops.
* Ayn looks startled as he stops, and she looks down, a bit guilty for listening into something so private. "....I'm sorry....."
<Vile> Nrp: I see a duet coming from this
* Ire turns his head to look at her. For a moment, the pain is obvious on his face, but by the time he turns around to face her, he's his normal self - a total emotionless blob.
<Ayn> I never knew you could sing. Not that well, not with that much emotion.
<Ayn> ...why did you stop?
* Ire is silent for a moment as the wind blows around them, then shrugs. "I knew you were up here."
<Ayn> I'm sorry.... I didn't know you were up here. I was... looking for a radio transceiver.
<Ire> ...There should be one over there. *he points in the direction off to the right side*
* Ayn looks to the right, and nods, "....thanks. I was thinking of trying to set up some sort of way to broadcast my music."
<Ire> ...that would just allow people to trace it back to the source.
<Ayn> I was going to scramble it. I wanted to see if I could.
<Ire> It's not a risk I would take.
* Ayn sighs softly, "....you're right." She shrugs, "Guess I could always try to build a recording room."
* Ire just stares.
<Ayn> What else do I have to do when we're not getting attacked?
* Ire keeps staring. The kind of stare that indicates he's wondering about her sanity.
* Ayn blinks at him, "What? It's not like anyone on this ship actually likes me and wants to spend time with me. I might as well make something of myself."
<Ire> An interesting theory you've come up with there.
* Ayn remains silent.
* Ire says nothing either, as if she has nothing to say, neither does he.
<Ayn> You all think I'm insane.
* Ire angles his head to look at her.
<Ire> I doubt that.
* Ayn looks a bit surprised at that, "....you're sure?"
<Ire> I would not say if it I wasn't.
<Ire> (it if)
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* Ayn nods slowly, "....alright." She looks up, "Making a rock and roll album is pretty stupid though, isn't it?"
<Ire> I would not know. *He says with simple honest*
* Ayn nods slowly again, and then looks to Ire, "We should go back inside."
* Ire looks around at the darkness of the night around them, then glances up at the moon.
* Ayn looks up to the moon with him.
<Ire> NRP: *it lands on them*
<Ire> Session Ends
Session Close: Wed Aug 20 01:40:54 2003