The Night Before:

Rare Blessings

by A Good RPer Long Forgotten


Christmas Eve 7:00 AM
Deck 4, section 4A
Senior Officers' Quarters
Personal quarters

"The stars shine brightly on Christmas Eve, as if they too know of the day's festivities. Here in the central square, children are laughing, carolers are singing, and the smell of goose fills the air. It's the time of year when one looks back towards Earth and wonders, when will we be exiles no more? Merry Christmas, Fury residents."

Paladin shut off the screen as he groggily arose. "Romantic shit and false hope, ugh," he muttered as he climbed into the shower. He let the steaming water run over his back as he stretched the knotted muscles. He reminded himself that he did not recuperate as fast as he had in his younger years. He climbed out and wiped off the mirror and gazed at the pale figure that stared back at him, his eyes bloodshot and his face drawn.

Turning from the mirror, Paladin tried to clear his head. The other officers all seemed to be busy moping over their losses. He felt somewhat sympathetic, but none of the casualties had been friends of his. Not that he had had many friends recently.

After dressing quickly, he exited his room with a vague notion of direction. Thinking always seemed to lead him to unpleasant conclusions, and those were some of the last things he needed to enjoy Christmas.

Idly, he entered the elevator and called out, "Bridge," without thinking. The elevator, unusually co-operative, immediately took him there. As he stepped out, Drake turned to look at him.

"Yes, Paladin?"

The sudden realization came to Paladin that he was not on duty that day. He stuttered the first response that came to mind. "I came to see if the ship was short-handed."

Drake's expression remained constant. "You're not needed here."

"Right."

Paladin stepped back onto the elevator and lit a cigar. "Main city level." Though the doors closed, the elevator refused to move. "Uh, please?"

"Not until you put that ghastly thing out. I can't take the smell."

"Damn piece of . . . you know that you don't have any olfactory sensors."

"Old factory?"

"You don't have a sense of smell."

"Oh, right. Off we go, then," came the response as the elevator moved down. Paladin sighed.


Eve of Christmas 9:21 AM
Deck 21, section 6C
Mid-level Urban area

Paladin sat in a small restaurant that had popped up in the Fury's urban belly. He stirred his fifth cup of coffee while staring at nothing in particular. A pang of regret shot through him. He pulled his wallet from his pocket and flipped it open to a picture of his parents. They had died before the attack, and he rarely thought of them, but still . . . there was something there. He and his father had not parted on the best of terms, but parents are parents. He, for just a moment, wished he had spent at least one Christmas with them since he left home over two decades before.

But the regret passed through his maturity to realize that there will always be some opportunities missed. Or perhaps it was just plain giving up on the past, but he didn't care much anymore.

"You pull that out to pay, hon?"

Paladin glanced up at the waitress, slightly startled. "Yea, I guess now's a good time." He paid his gil and quickly gulped down the mug.

He walked out the door and past two arguing teenagers. One shouted at the other something along the lines of "Macross my ass!" while the other argued back. It crossed Paladin's mind to stop them, but he shrugged it off like so much rain. He wandered into the shopping district, and it occurred to him that the other officers might have an exchange of gifts. Thoughts of what gifts would suit who were wandering through his head when he spotted what looked like a familiar face on a raised platform above one of the shops.

The attempt to kick in his thrusters failed as he was not born with them and the suit was in his quarters. He grunted in frustration and began to move in the direction of the store when he bumped into something scaly. Caught by surprise, he whirled on the apparent threat. It was merely Xrileshr. He still was uncomfortable with having one of them, the enemy, on the Fury.

"Oh, Tsivrixsh." Paladin looked back over his shoulder at the platform. If it had been her, she would be long gone by that time. He looked up at the tall alien. "Pull patrol duty?"

"That's correct, human. I found there wasn't really a point not to take duty, for me, at least."

Paladin wondered at the parallel of speech. He merely called the alien "Tsivrixsh" to keep things from getting personal. While most were honorable creatures, good to their word, they still weren't the most trustworthy of races. Years of fighting the Tsivs didn't help his outlook on their race either, but he thought he was being extremely friendly, considering the state of things . . .

"Thank God somebody seems to be somewhat responsible."

"Discipline is an important that is stressed in Tsivrixsh service... It is also an essential value to an honorable warrior, so I take care to be responsible in my actions. Unfortunately, my values are not entirely shared by some of the other officers here. From what I've seen, at least," replied Xrileshr.

"They're actually getting better. But then again, there's no way they could have gotten worse . . ."

"You were a member of the famed older Hunters, were you not? What was their stance on discipline?"

Paladin thought for a moment. There was no sense in bad mouthing the dead, but he shouldn't give the impression that they were a great team. They were just a bunch of great individuals; there was no "team." "Let's just say that discipline and hunters are two words that don't mesh well."

"All the more impressive they succeeded against the mavericks and Tsivrixsh forces attacking, isn't it then? Of course, Xshiaver probably just wanted to get rid of Tsavra, the Elder as he called himself. Probably explaining part of that victory... It was a slightly unfortunate one though, I think. It gave your planet a bit of overconfidence."

Paladin decided not to argue with the Tsivrixsh, but he was fairly certain that there was some skill involved in the defeat of the Elder. "Uh, Zehshaver? And the Earth has always, for the most part, been overconfident."

"Most species are. A difficult flaw to overcome... Xshiaver is the self-proclaimed emperor of the Tsivrixsh Empire. He took over power from the High Council, and, I believe as does our resistance against him, that he is trying to take complete power, by getting rid of all in the High Council, save his lackeys like Shretrav."

"My god, this is turning into an educational course on the Tsivs . . . I'd better get out of here," thought Paladin. He replied, "Oh. Ok, thanks for the lesson. I've got . . . shopping, yes Christmas shopping to do."

"Ah, yes. Gift giving is a human tradition on this Christmas... Perhaps I should attempt to give some gifts. Unfortunately, I'm not confident in my ability to choose appropriate gifts for human tastes..."

"Just got with fruitcakes. Anyway, I have to go."

"Hmm, I see. I will have to look into these fruitcakes. Farewell for now."

Paladin shook his head as he walked away. The guy seemed to be all right, but he was still a Tsiv. And worse, he was still loyal to the Tsivs, just not their emperor.

He began to look for gifts.


Day before Christmas, 11:43 AM
Deck 23, section 2A
Upper-level Urban Area

Laden with his purchases, Paladin began to make his way toward his quarters. He had arrived at one of the larger intersections when he spotted her again. Shoving his way through the crowd, Paladin made his way toward the opposite corner of the square.

He pushed forward. One of his bags caught on something. He pulled it free. A large family began pushing him back. He made his way forward. A transport blocked his path. He moved around it. The crowd swelled into his path. He began to violently shove his way forward. He arrived at the other side.

The head of red had moved a few yards and was facing away from him and was facing into a store window. He walked forward and grabbed her shoulder. A completely unfamiliar face turned to him. "Yes?"

"Oh. I'm sorry, I thought you were somebody else."

"Lose somebody? Sorry hun, but I'm sure you'll find them soon."

Paladin muttered his thanks and moved away. He was certain he had seen her face, but she had disappeared again. Sighting her was usually a biweekly occurrence, and it seemed to come only when she wanted him to see her. So what was going on? Was she following him, or was she just busier due to the season? His thoughts were interrupted as he roughly ran into another familiar figure. Or rather, ran through another familiar figure.

Paladin looked at the wavering visage of Gravedigger in disgust as he brushed droplets of Gravedigger goup off of his leather trenchcoat. "Uh . . . Jell-O Man, er, Gravedigger," Paladin said as he tried to regain his composure. No words came to mind, so he just blurted out the first thing that came into mind. "I'm sorry about your loss."

"Man, do you ever watch where you're going? Look at me, I'm a quivering mass . . ."

Not really thinking about his actions, Paladin reached out and poked Grave's chest. The jiggling was repulsive, yet hypnotic, almost like the ocean.

Gravedigger giggled. "Hee hee . . . 'ey, waitaminute, that ain't funny!"

"Shouldn't you be more broken up about the death of your daughter, no . . . sorry, girl, wait . . ." He came to the realization that nobody close to Gravedigger had died, even with all of the recent demises. "uh, cat?"

" . . . uh, hate to break it to you, Binky, but I don't have any of those."

Paladin gripped the bridge of his nose at the development of another headache. "Sorry. It seems recently everybody has had somebody die. Nobody seems able to just deal with death anymore." He reached out and poked 'digger again. "Man, I need one of those on my desk. The waves are soothing."

Gravedigger glared at Paladin. "Stop that."

"Anyway, what's going on? You pull duty?"

"Sorta. I've got a shit load of cases to take care of before I'm supposed to help Drake meet a new arrival tomorrow sometime. I'll tell you, I hate the holidays, way too many people go stupid."

"You've got no hard feelings for Drake?"

"Yeah, but he's paying me for it. He may be a hardass, but as long as he's paying me, I'll put up with him.

"Mm. Well, that's great. Look, I'll see you around."

"Yeah, watching my ass, no doubt."

Gravedigger was a nice enough guy, except Wien seemed to have influenced him a lot. Gratuitous insults seemed to be his forte. Paladin shrugged and walked off. Gravedigger followed suit.

A few streets later, he almost bumped into yet another officer, but decided that a conversation with Death Star was not something he really wanted at the moment. Ducking down a side alley, Paladin made a detour.

He wasn't quite sure why, but after he had received forgiveness, resentment had popped up. Why hadn't Death Star been on earth to protect it? Why did he leave just because of Spade? Why didn't he fight? Paladin knew the answers, yet he still resented the actions taken by his former CO. Hell, he resented a lot of the team. But showing strong emotions was something trained out of him. At least that was something CorSec had done right.


Look, it's the fricken day before the celebration of the birth of Christ, ok? 3:47PM
Deck 6, maintenance labs
Paladin's work area

Paladin finished up the repairs he'd been meaning to do on his suit. He had added the compartment to store street clothing and to call them up for disguise during missions. Handy addition.

He walked over to the airlock he had chosen the area for. It gave him a quick way in and out of the ship. Something to relieve his stress. He used it.

Quickly suiting up, he stepped out. The Fury wasn't in hyperspace, so he knew it would be safe to sit on the Fury's hull and stare at the unobstructed light show of space. The shields would protect him from space debris, as they always did. He flew out.

Paladin did not take the usual route. Usually he walked along the surface and stopped above the bridge. For some reason, he just felt like floating. He brought his relative thrust to the Fury to zero. Floating out away from it, yet still within the shields, Paladin gave his hip thrusters opposite thrusts. He began to spin slowly. Being back in Zero-G calmed his nerves.

After meditating for a few minutes and clearing his thoughts, he jetted to the hull. There he sat, and familiarized himself with the patterns of the stars and how they were moving.

He sat there for about an hour before a voice came over his comm. It was on one of the lower frequencies. The kind that don't travel over distance or through obstructions. The kind used by the toy walkie talkies that are used as kids' toys. It said, "Hey."

Paladin recognized the voice and knew somebody was standing behind him. He had felt the vibrations of magnetic boots gripping the hull and walking in his direction. He did not turn around. "You've been following me."

"At least you're as welcoming as ever." The bright white space suit clumped next to Paladin and positioned itself as to sit on the hull next to him.

"Hey, you shot me, remember?"

"That's only because you wouldn't leave. Don't be such a cry-baby."

"But you shot me!"

"Look, I'm sorry, but I wasn't ready to give up my lifestyle."

"You don't say you're sorry when you shoot somebody. Generally it's an unforgivable offense."

"For God's sake, if I'd known you were going to be like this, I wouldn't have come out here."

"All right, all right, I'm sorry. Does that mean you are ready to stop now?"

"I didn't say that. It's just that . . . Well, you don't have any family on board, and you don't give the impression of being too close to your fellow soldiers . . . I guess this is an invitation to spend Christmas with me."

Paladin sat in silence. He wasn't sure he could handle her again. She had quite literally hurt him. Mind and body, she was poison.

"Gordon?"

Hell, it didn't matter, he was still in love with her, and he doubted another opportunity like this would come up. When she got hurt, she disappeared.

"Gordon?" she repeated, a little more urgently.

"Yeah. I mean, of course. Would I turn down a beautiful woman?" He could hear her sigh with relief over the comm, but he didn't let on. "Just don't shoot me again."

Lauren chuckled softly, knowing she was forgiven. She put her arm around him, and they stared out together.


Same magical day, 8:36
Deck 32, section 7B
Lower-level Urban area
Gigi's Sushi Bar

After hours of talking and working out motivations, emotions, and all the other boring complicated parts of relationships, they had eaten at one of the lower levels. Paladin had never felt better, and he was pretty sure that the feeling was mutual.

It was one of the grungier places that was not well known, but the food was some of the best. There was a comfortable air to the restaurant, and a feeling of anonymity. There was a quiet moment of easy intimacy. Paladin was dancing on cloud nine; he was sure everything would be grand and that nothing could ever be bad again. Somewhere in the back of his mind, doubts screamed at him, but he ignored them. Realty could take a back seat to utopia, for a while.

"Look, I think the other officers are planning a party or something later tonight, and I doubt it's the type of thing you'd really want to attend. Officials, jerks, and combinations of the two."

"Heh, I thought you might need to attend to some duties. Here." She handed him a folded piece of paper. "It's a frequency outside of the monitored range, at least inside the ship. Contact me, we'll meet up in the big square on deck 21," replied Lauren.

Paladin put down the gil for the meal, and they walked out. Wordlessly, she gave him a long, lingering kiss, and then they walked in opposite directions. He brought a cigar to his mouth and bit off the ends. He lit it. It was great to be alive.