Session Start: Mon Jun 05 21:03:17 2006
Session Ident: #taw
* Logging #taw to 'logs\EsperNet\#taw.20060605.log'
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<DeathStar> Stardate: 10-583.11.10
<DeathStar> Location: PAX Station
<DeathStar> 6* Four days. Ever since the mission gone wrong on the planet Erevis, Commodore Darien has put a lock down on all mission reports or out going transmissions. Thus far, only the immediate crew know that Katrina McCormick is now a being called Erevis. And so far no one knows why Chad Winters is in the brig, still.
<Ariel> NRP: Because we don't like him. <.<
* Chad`Winters sits on the cot in his cell, his head hanging down, his hands cupped infront of him in his lap.
<Xanatos`Durran> NRP: Bout what time of the day is this/
<DeathStar> NRP: Morning
* Xanatos`Durran is sitting in the floor of his room, his back is rested against the wall and his eyes are closed.
<DeathStar> 6* Katrina McCormick, aka Erevis, is holding clothing of Xanatos, staring at it. So far she has worn no clothing since her arrival in defiance, throwing his stuff aside as if it's worthless. So far she's turned his room into a mess.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *sits infront of her terminal, the glow of it lighting her face*
<DeathStar> 6* Dragoon Alpha Zephyr steps into the brig, sitting down in a chair that is adjacent from Chad's cell. She stares over at him
* Xanatos`Durran opens his eye to look at Erevis. "I'm sorry that my things aren't good enough for you."
<DeathStar> <Erevis> Your belongings are either sentimental nonsense or a sore to my eyes.
* Chad`Winters turns his hands over as is staring at something on them
* `Cole stands on the observation deck, staring out into space. His guitar is laying a seat over to his left. He seems to be in deep thought.
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> They are indeed your hands, Chad Winters. 6She states.
<Xanatos`Durran> I'm afraid thats about all I am. *he pulls himself up to stand* Sentimental and an eyesore. *he rubs his neck lightly and stares at Erevis.* "Did you sleep at all?"
* Chad`Winters turns them back over cupping them again. He looks up, stuble covering his face. 1"What I'm afraid of..."
<DeathStar> <Erevis> I laid down on the bed for four hours as you suggested. I was properly unconscious for the period. 6She turns to look at Durran, her red hair swishing as she looks.
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> You are afraid of what those hands might do again? 6She surmizes.
<Xanatos`Durran> Good. *he steps past her and opens up a drawer, he pulls out some clothing for himself, his standard military suit, he gets dressed quietly*
<DeathStar> <Erevis> You are leaving? 6She asks, studying him with her green eyes.
<Chad`Winters> I had no control but all the memories of what I did...The malice, the enjoyment I had for the chaos I caused...The look in their eyes...
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> You are... afraid of yourself ... AND afraid of how they will look at you? 6She asks, tilting her head to look at Chad.
* Xanatos`Durran turns back to Erevis, "I'm not sure yet." He moves over to his bed and pulls up his comm, he taps it few times sending a page out to Cassandra, he waits for a few minutes. "Hmm probably not."
* Chad`Winters leans his head back, resting it against the cell wall. 1"Yes...It'll be like it was when I was forced back here.
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis walks over, eyeing some pictures Xanatos had on his dresser. She picks up one of Kat and him posing together.
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> You will have to face sooner or later. They may think they are holding you here against your will, but I believe your body language suggests you are hiding here, not being held here.
* Xanatos`Durran watches Erevis. He tosses his comm to the side, giving up on Cassandra. "...." He looks down at the floor, thinking.
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis lets the picture drop back onto the dresser, then walks over to play with a lamp, pushing the button over and over again as the light goes on and off.
<Chad`Winters> In the end, all that matters is that this is currently the safest place for me and everyone else.
<Xanatos`Durran> May I ask you something? *he turns his head to look at Erevis.
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> I disagree.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> You may ask. 6She turns to face him.
<Chad`Winters> And why's that? *he looks down at her*
<Xanatos`Durran> What exactly do you want? *he narrows his eyes*
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> You reverted back to an old persona. A persona you currently lack questions about. This place is the last place you need to be. You must answers, Chad Winters, or you will always be haunted. And I do not like that expression on your face.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> What I want is irrelevant at this point. You are the one issuing orders now, are you not, Xanatos Durran? 6She says, purposely using his full name.
<DeathStar> (lack answers)
* Xanatos`Durran stands off of his bed now and turns to face Erevis, "I guess that kinda makes me your leader then? A good leader always listens to those that he commands, and he or she takes into consideration what they want."
<Xanatos`Durran> NRP: Sera...Kio, you guys rping?
<DeathStar> <Erevis> A good leader issues orders despite the objections of the group. A good leader rules over the group and ensures it follows his will.
<Chad`Winters> Do you know what disappoints me the most about this?
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> What?
<Xanatos`Durran> Oh? Is that what you think? *Durran crosses his arms* I've have many leaders in my short life. And I have always seen that those who are more considerate, often have the most loyal subbordinates.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> Yet you blindly follow Darien Starr. 6She notes, looking up at the ceiling now.
* Xanatos`Durran looks down as he thinks. "Darien was never my real leader. It was Warren." He looks up to her now, "I was in the mindset that if I just did as they said, that soon I would be leaving and I wouldn't have to worry about this place. Perhaps if I would have asked my own questions, then you would still be some stone back in a jungle."
<DeathStar> <Erevis> You would like that. 6She notes wryly, reading it from his mind easily.
<Chad`Winters> I struggled to prove to everyone that I was nothing like the person that helped Spade kill Venerator, yet...*his hands move up infront of his face, cupping before it* The second they see a change, wether it was by choice or not, they latch onto their old hatreds and seek revenge.
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> Some have done so. Others have not. Everyone's reactions vary, as per usual with sentient beings.
<Xanatos`Durran> Of course I would. Even though I lost Katrina, it wasn't anything like this...she was still her. And not some God-thing. *he turns his head to stare at his bed* I really hate my luck.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> ... 6She says nothing to that, since there is nothing to say.
<Xanatos`Durran> Even if there was some way to get Katrina back, I doubt you would tell me. Right?
* Ceres wakes, looking up at the cieling of her room, having taken a long nap, trying to think over everything that happened
<DeathStar> <Erevis> The person you knew as Katrina is dead. However, even if I did know a way, I would not be willing to part with such information that would kill me.
* Chad`Winters let's out a false laugh. 1"Maybe the ones that want me dead are right...
<Xanatos`Durran> I don't reckon you would. *he notes the change in his dialect and turns back to Erevis* If I found you some of Katrina's old clothes, would you be willing to wear those?
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr's face looks unhappy. "Why would you say such a thing, Chad?"
<DeathStar> <Erevis> Ah. Clothing. A human need so there are no awkward situations. Fine. I will wear whatever you present to me.
<Chad`Winters> Because I think I've reached the end of my ropes...Everything I struggled to build for myself came crumbling down because of what I don't know...and concequently can't control.
* Xanatos`Durran nods and moves to the door. "People do not know that you are now the God Erevis, so please stay put for the moment so that no trouble occurs. Alright?"
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> Then you must learn to control it. If one does not "tame their inner demons, then their demons win." Are you going to let your demons win, Chad? 6She tilts her head.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> I will do as you ask.
<Chad`Winters> ...It's strange...I've had no problem fighting for others, but when I comes to fighting for myself...I've got no strength.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr stands up, deactivating the barrier that keeps Chad in and walks over. "Then I will be your strength. I will help you fight for yourself." 6She picks Chad up by the arm and dangles him over the bed like he were a child.
* Alicia is now known as Red_Fox
<Red_Fox> NRP: Gah, sorry, here now
<Chad`Winters> ...*looks over at her an odd look on his face* By stripping me of my dignity?
* `Cole moves over and sits down on a seat, pulling up his guitar, he closes his eyes and begins to play, releasing his emotions.
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> I merely use strength as an inspirational force for your body. 6She drops him to the ground. "Proceed with me to the mess hall so we might feed you properly." 6She begins to walk out, leaving no room for discussion
* Xanatos`Durran nods. "I think I might stop by and talk to Chad. So I might be a little bit, if you want to tickle your curiosity, you can watch the holovid or search through the console over there." *Xan points them out and then turns to leave*
* Red_Fox sits in her quarters, and meditates for now
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *runs her hands through her hair. She stands up from her chair*
* Chad`Winters bounces onto the ground. He pauses for a few seconds then reluctantly gets up, following after her, his disposition is one of a timid child.
* Xanatos`Durran moves down the hall, making his way for Katrina's room.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr marches, passing various crew members who just think Chad and Zephyr are playing role reversals. It would appear no one knows why Chad was locked up yet.
* Red_Fox sighs a little, breaking her uneasy trance, and heads out
* Xanatos`Durran moves into the Katrina's room, a sad look on his face as he looks for some clothing.
* Ceres gets dressed and steps out of her room, walking along down the corridor
* Chad`Winters follows behind like a lost dog, he seems to be looking down and away from the people he passes by.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr brings him into the mess hall, where various people start whispering, wondering what Chad did. Zephyr orders jello, then waits for Chad to make his order of food.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *moves into her bathroom and turns the faucet on, letting the water turn icy cold.*
* Red_Fox starts towards the security room, with a sense of slight uneasiness
* Red_Fox switches course for the mess hall after a moment.. it'd be best to eat
* `Cole stops playing after only a moment, his music being too angry for his own taste's.
* Chad`Winters orders his usual food.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr sits down, her face one that says no one better mess with Chad. And no one does. She waits for Chad to sit.
* Xanatos`Durran steps out of Katrina's room with a neatly folded dress, one that he recalled Katrina wearing so often. *he turns toward the Galley, intending on gathering some food for Erevis even though the God does not need food.
* Chad`Winters moves over across from Zephyr and sits down, his tray resting infront of him.
* Red_Fox heads into the mess hall quietly, glancing at Erevis, then Chad
<DeathStar> NRP: Zephyr...is ...Erevis?
<Chad`Winters> NRP: No Erevis, Zephry.
<Red_Fox> NRP: Oops, misread then
<Red_Fox> NRP: Lose the Erevis part
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> Tell me. If you had to begin searching for your true past, who would be the one person you think could tell you? 6She plays with her jello like a child.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *splashes fcold water on her face as she uses it to waken herself up.
* Red_Fox sighs a little on seeing Chad, staring at the ground, and then gets some food
* Chad`Winters takes in a deep breathe eyeing her, wondering why she would even go there.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr shoots Fox a look that clearly means to stay the hell away. Coming from little Zephyr, it's practically terrifying.
* `Cole sets the guitar at his side and stares up at the ceiling. "I should have stayed on Mjolinar." He mumurs to himself.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr turns back to Chad, waiting for him to answer her question. She seems unaware on the whole "I'm eyeing you in silence" thing he's giving her, or just ignoring it.
* Red_Fox winces, and sits far away from anyone, looking more depressed than angry
* Ceres wanders past Cole's room, and knocks softly
<Chad`Winters> The only connection that my...self had contact with...
<`Cole> *No answer*
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr taps her jello, making it vibrate.
* Xanatos`Durran steps into the cafeteria, he seems to be focus'd on the food at the moment, not even noticing anyone else.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *leaves from her room and steps outside, heading down the hallway*
<Chad`Winters> William Spade....*he says it as he pokes at his food*
* Red_Fox virtually just stares at her food
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> He is currently in prison on Earth, though. 6She frowns, trying to think around this problem. Her shoulders slump.
* Ceres knocks again
<Chad`Winters> Does the end justify the mean? *he asks as he picks up a small ball of rice*
<`Cole> *Again there is no answer, he doesn't seem to be there*
* Xanatos`Durran gathers two apple and pockets them, then a cup of jello as well, he pays for them and then turns to leave, then notices Chad and Zephyr, he moves over and sits beside Zephyr lightly. "Yo." he says lightly to the two.
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> What ends and means are you referring to?
* Red_Fox glances over to Xan, then down at the floor again
* Chad`Winters lowers his head slightly as Xan sits down, he takes another rice ball and eats it.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr glances up at Durran, then at Chad, then at Durran, unable to decide if she should hurt Durran for being mean to Chad on the planetr.
* Ceres sighs and walks on, heading for the lounge
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *stops outside of Xanatos Durran's room and pauses*
* Chad`Winters shakes his head slightly as if sensing Zephyr's thoughts.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr smiles suddenly at Durran after seeing the look. "Hello, Xanatos. How are you?"
* Xanatos`Durran stares at Chad, not even looking at Zephyr. "You ok?" He says after a moment.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr drops her head a notch, looking a bit off-put at being ignored.
* Chad`Winters takes in a deep breathe then releases it. 1"I'm fine."
<Xanatos`Durran> You look like shit. *he says, still staring and not moving*
* Chad`Winters just shrugs. 1"...I'm sorry for what I did."
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *sighs and knocks on the door*
<DeathStar> 6* A brief pause, then a grinding sound as the door is wretched open. It seems someone doesn't know how to work the control panel yet.
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis steps up to the door to look at Shiva, completely nude still. She just stares at Shiva, her head lolling from one side to the other, as if looking at a painting.
<Ceres> *Elsiah walks back into the brig with a meal, sitting down at a chair, tasking a bite of her sandwich and watching Chad.
* Ceres conintues to wander on
<DeathStar> NRP: Chad's not in the brig.
<Chad`Winters> 6As she sits down, she'd find Chad gone.
<Xanatos`Durran> Don't worry about it, Erevis caused it. I always knew that the dark side of you was still in there, but I also knew that if it were to ever arise that I would be there to stop it. But as it turns out, I wasn't the one to do it. So, I'm sorry about that. *he turns to look at Zephyr lightly, then back to Chad* And no matter what anyone else thinks, I know that you aren't that man anymore.
<Chad`Winters> You're wrong Durran...I am...I didn't realize it until I re-awoke with all the memories of what I did...
* `Cole sighs and pulls his guitar up, playing again, this time a familar song, that rests well to calm his heart, the sound of the guitar would echo throughout the nearby halls.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> Let us talk.
* Xanatos`Durran frowns once but then returns to his neutral face, "So you are saying that I befriended a fake?"
<DeathStar> <Erevis> You wish to talk with me? 6She makes it sound absurd, but doesn't dismiss her.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr scowls at how Durran talks to Chad.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> I'd prefer to talk to Katrina but you will do.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> I can tell.
<Chad`Winters> Things began to click into place while I sat in my cell....*pauses, as if something clicks* His words...
* Ceres follows the sound towards Cole, smiling when she finds him
<Ceres> *Elsiah grumbles and hits her comms, "Where's Winters?"
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> So shall we?
<DeathStar> <Warren on Comm> Do not worry about that, Lt.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> Speak.
* Xanatos`Durran just watches Chad, not having anything to say.
<Ceres> Elsiah> "Fine."
<DeathStar> <Warren on Comm> ...
<DeathStar> NRP: <Warren on Comm> You are my enemy, Elsiah.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> Let us go inside...*she moves to enter the room.
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis lets her pass, then waves a hand and the doors wrench close behind them. She walks to stand in the middle of the room, watching Shiva's every movement
* `Cole sings the song of never giving up, then slowly fades back into silence his eyes still closed.
* Ceres takes a seat near Cole, "Play some more."
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> What words? 6She asks, curiousity getting the better of her.
* `Cole blinks his eyes open to see Ceres, "Miss Ceres you startled me. It's not nice to sneak up on someone." He smiles at her lightly.
* Red_Fox very slowly eats, as if forcing herself to
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *moves over to the bed and sits on the edge, she lifts her head and looks up at Erevis* What's your game?
* Ceres smiles back, "Very sorry, but please... play on."
<DeathStar> 6 *Warren sits in the security room, since it's totally isolated at this time. He types on the computer, doing something on the main computer.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> "Game"?
<Ceres> *Elsiah takes another bite of her sandwich and checks the ammo on her gun, smiling to herself.
<Chad`Winters> He said...That I could hear his voice...He knew...
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> ..
<Chad`Winters> It started with him....That means it'll end with him.
<DeathStar> 6* Warren carefully brings up files, transactions, files, mission statements, working hard on seeing something in them for a pattern. He eyes the door occassionally to make sure he isn't caught using the main computer.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> Your con...I don't have to be psychic to know see through your charade.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> You assume I have a hidden agenda for being here.
* `Cole nods his head and begins to play another song, of a glorious place, far far away.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> By rules of combat, a beaten foe becomes the servant to the victor. My powers are nearly depleted because of your group.
<Xanatos`Durran> Seems you and I have something in common.
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> ... 6She thinks about something.
<Chad`Winters> This isn't about a petty rivalry Durran...
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *tilts her head* We interupted it didn't we...You couldn't complete your transfer...
<DeathStar> <Erevis> My powers would have been without limits had it finished. 6Her hand clinches, anger on her face. It fades. "Alas, that was not the case."
<Xanatos`Durran> Course not, but I never said it was, I'm merely saying we both have issues with Spade. Of course yours has to be much more important. *he notes*
* `Cole slowly brings the song to a close, now silent, staring at Ceres.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> So that's your game, you're waiting...recovering...
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis tilts her head toward Shiva. "We all are waiting, Shiva." 6She paces over to her, running a hand almost over her cheek, but not touching. "Even you."
* Ceres looks back at him, "What?"
* Chad`Winters rubs his forehead. 1"It'll be the end for me when this gets out." 6He says as if weighing his options.
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> I must do something. I will return. 6She stands, bows, and hurries out.
<`Cole> You are troubled with the outcome of the last mission.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> You can't con a con man...or woman as they say. *she says with a slight smirk on her face*
* Chad`Winters tilts his head as Zephyr runs off.
* Xanatos`Durran glances at Zephyr leave.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> What will you tell John? 6She asks suddenly, turning away from her to look at the ceiling again.
<Xanatos`Durran> So what are you going to do?
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> What does it matter to you, a god?
<DeathStar> <Erevis> It matters not. Idle curiousity. 6She responds.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> As long as her memories exist in your head she's still alive you know.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> ...
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> With John...I'm sure he'll want to know, but I'm worried about how he'll react.
* Chad`Winters looks up as he snaps outo fh is thoughts. 1"Hmm?"
<Ceres> "Extremely..."
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis turns to face her again, staring at Shiva. "...."
<`Cole> Do you feel we did the right thing/
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr enters the security room, talking in a low voice in Warren's ear. Warren pauses, then begins to close out all his files, nodding as he stands up and walks out with her.
<Xanatos`Durran> What do you plan on doing?
<Xanatos`Durran> You could claim you were being controlled. *he notes, though he knows it probably wouldn't work*
* Chad`Winters reaches down for his knife and picks it up, he points it at Durran, 1"It won't work...Even with it being true, they won't believe me."
<Xanatos`Durran> I know. *he states, staring at Chad* Leave then. Beats jail doesn't it?
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> I want to let you know...That I won't stop until I have Katrina back.
<DeathStar> 6* Warren and Zephyr appear in the doorway to the mess hall. Zephyr gives Chad a nod, then waves their way.
<DeathStar> <Erevis> Your mission is a pointless one. 6She says, perhaps frustrated with something.
<Chad`Winters> ...*looks over at Warren and Zeph then at Durran* Excuse me....*he stands up and walks off towards tehm*
* Red_Fox wanders over to Xan quietly
<Ceres> "I just... I don't know... I want Kat to be in thre somewhere..."
<Xanatos`Durran> Chad. *he looks at him* Never hesistate to ask for my help. You're still my friend.
<DeathStar> 6* Warren puts a hand on Chad's shoulder, leading him away from the mess hallway with Chad. "I think I can help you do what you want to do. Zephyr filled me in."
* Red_Fox watches Warren for a moment, then looks back to Xan
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *looks at her as if reading her* You're frustrated....
* Xanatos`Durran glances at Fox. "Morning." He states to her quietly.
<Red_Fox> "Warren's a great guy... I guess he has to be..."
<DeathStar> <Erevis> You all desire the dead back. Your desire for me to be gone are like fumes fouling the air. 6She snaps, turning away.
* Chad`Winters looks over at him. 1"Why would you help me?"
* Xanatos`Durran glances at Fox. But says nothing to her.
<DeathStar> <Warren> Because I want answers, too. 6He states simply as he walks along. "I vowed to protect the ideal of this place long ago. And it's in danger of falling apart. Your answers are answers I think can help us all. And answer some suspicions."
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> I only desire Katrina back, currently, what happens to you does not matter to me.
<Red_Fox> "Yeah, morning... is it just those two, or am I as hated as I feel? It's not really a surprise if I am."
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis waves a hand and Durran's door wrenches open. "Leave me."
<Red_Fox> "I... Erevis was right... I really was a traitor..."
<Xanatos`Durran> You confessed your unending hate for him. Do you blame them? *he glances at Fox* Erevis knows nothing, ignore it.
<`Cole> We would have been better of killing her i'm afraid. For the greater good of the universe, now I fear this god will destroy us all.
<Red_Fox> "Of course I don't blame them... I just want to be forgiven..."
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *Stands up eyeing her again* I will get what I want in the end, I always do. *she heads outo f the room*
<DeathStar> <Erevis> Not always. 6She states more to herself than anything.
<Xanatos`Durran> You could try asking. *he narrows his eyes to look at her*
<Chad`Winters> ...You've noticed things too then Warren?
<Red_Fox> "Yeah.. I'll try. If she rips my head off, I probably deserve it."
<DeathStar> 6* Warren picks an area without cameras, turning around. "I have enough pull that I could get you a meeting with Spade in about 5 days. Not only can you get your own answers, you can get answers about all of PAX."
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> Warren believes he knows a General who will grant you access to the prison where Spade is located.
<Red_Fox> "I'm guessing now isn't a good time, though."
* Chad`Winters steps back as if shocked at this. 1"A clear cut visit?
<DeathStar> <Warren> Yeah. The fact is with Darien's lock down in place, you have just enough wiggle room left that no one is going to look twice your way.
<Xanatos`Durran> Indeed. *he stands* Fox, you left because you thought this place was doomed, correct? *he glances down at her*
<Red_Fox> "No... I left because I couldn't stand what happened."
<DeathStar> <Warren> However, that's not going to last long. Personally, if this were my last chance, I'll do whatever it takes to make Spade give me those answers I need.
<Chad`Winters> The lockdown can't possibly last that down with raising suspiscion.
<Red_Fox> "I looked up to Venerator... idolised him, even..."
<Chad`Winters> He'll have to give them willingly Warren, it's nearly impossible to beat it out of him.
<DeathStar> <Warren> You have something Spade wants, Chad. I guarentee it.
* Chad`Winters looks puzzled. 1"I do?"
<Red_Fox> "The Venerator, venerated." *laughs.. but with a sense of sorrow rather than mirth*
<Ceres> "No... I doubt that... she wants to rule us, if anything."
<DeathStar> 6* Warren nods. "Just return to your duties like normal. As long as Darien is making this line in the sand, you can act. Take advantage of it.
<Xanatos`Durran> Vennie is dead, I'd say it is high time you start putting more faith in yourself and your allies. But you must take careful consideration in choosing your allies.
<Chad`Winters> You speak as if Darien is not to be trusted.
<DeathStar> <Warren> That remains to be seen from what you learn from Spade.
<Red_Fox> "My allies is easy... myself... I don't think I'm going to be able to do that any time soon."
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis steps out of Durran's room, walking toward Kat's room. She wrenches open the door and steps inside.
<Chad`Winters> I undesrstand...Thank you Warren.
<Red_Fox> "I'd even trust Chad, or Zephyr, with my life..."
<DeathStar> 6* Warren nods, knowing that it might come down to a final run for Chad after this is all over. "Good luck, Winters." 6He nods to Zephyr, stepping down the hallway.
<Chad`Winters> Warren...
<DeathStar> 6* Warren glances around at him.
<Xanatos`Durran> Why is that? Self pity gets us nowhere, I learned that the hard way. The only thing we can make changes in our life is by doing it yourself, if you cannot trust yourself, then you cannot fully trust another. *he glances down at his watch* I have to get back to Erevis. Stop being so depressed, it'll get you nowhere. *he nods and begins to move off*
<Red_Fox> "I guess I should say sorry now, before they're gone."
<Chad`Winters> Thank you for saving me...But I have one request of you...
<DeathStar> <Warren> What is that?
* Red_Fox heads towards Chad and Zephyr, looking less than confident
* `Cole sits there thinking for a moment. "Being controlled is something I fear worse than being killed."
* Xanatos`Durran moves off toward his own room again.
<Chad`Winters> *looks down the hallway and into Warren's eyes* If I lose control to the point I'm a danger...Kill me.
<Red_Fox> "..."
<DeathStar> <Warren> Then don't lose control. 6He says with a nod, turning and leaving them. Zephyr watches him go, turning to look at Chad.
* Ceres nods, "I wonder how Kat feels..."
<DeathStar> 6* Katrina's door is closed again by the time Durran arrives.
<Red_Fox> "Are you alright...?"
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr eyes Fox, stepping between Chad and her.
* Chad`Winters turns his head to look at Zephyr, then over at Fox.
<Red_Fox> "I came to apologize... I've... been unworthy."
<`Cole> I'd say nothing at the moment. She is nothing more than a collective of memories inside a shell being controlled by something else.
* Xanatos`Durran moves back onto his floor and moves on back to his room, he steps inside it and stops as soon as the door open, not spotting Erevis. "Damnit." He moves back out into the hall and pulls up his datapad, searching for traces of Erevis.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *walks past her room and heads towards the training room*
<DeathStar> 6* He finds her in the diplomatic offices.
<Red_Fox> "If you hate me, I don't blame you."
<Ceres> "You really believe her?"
<Red_Fox> "I just want to be forgiven.. I'm going to try to be a better person, but all I can do right now is reflect upon my sins."
<`Cole> I do. *he moves his eyes to viewport of space beside him*
<`Cole> NRP: *slaps Fox* Give people time to reply, eh? :D
<Chad`Winters> I don't hate you...It's easy to succumb to hatred and rage.
<Red_Fox> NRP: *laughs* Yeah, I guess I'm talking too fast
* Xanatos`Durran moves toward the diplomatic offices in a hurry.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr says nothing during all of this, merely there to protect Chad from pain, and since Fox is apologizing, has no need to do so.
<Red_Fox> "Yeah... the things I blamed you for... I've done so much worse."
<DeathStar> 6* When Durran arrives, he finds Erevis in Katrina's uniform, talking to some worker about paperwork. The worker is completely clueless he's talking to a God instead of Katrina, who is putting on all the facial expressions and emotions Katrina would do instead of her blank look. The worker walks across the room to grab something, putting space between him and Erevis for the moment.
* Xanatos`Durran arches a brow, eyeing Erevis. He moves his head to glance at the worker.
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis turns to look at Durran, still the same Kat expression. "Well, hello there, Xan. How are you?" 6she says brightly.
<Red_Fox> "It's not like I have an excuse, either."
<Ceres> "I don't... she's nothing but a liar..."
<Chad`Winters> I forgive you Red Fox...*he lifts his head up*
* Xanatos`Durran moves to look at Erevis again, "Not to good I'm afraid, would it be ok if I can pull you away from duties for a bit of counciling? I know you don't do that anymore, but it'd be a real help."
<Red_Fox> "Thankyou.. I feel... almost hypocritical even saying it, but I forgive you too."
<`Cole> And if she isn't lying? *his eyes wander back to Ceres*
<DeathStar> <Erevis> I'd love to. Excuse us. 6She says politely to the worker, letting Xanatos lead her to a private meeting room off to the side.
<Chad`Winters> Thank you Red Fox. *he bows his head*
* Xanatos`Durran closes the door behind Erevis and moves over to a seat, "You are something."
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr smiles at Fox.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *steps into the training room and moves over to the punching bag and begins punching against it*
<Red_Fox> "I should be the one bowing to you." *bows her own head*
<DeathStar> <Erevis> Whatever do you mean, Xanatos? 6She hops up on the table like Katrina would do, crossing her legs. "Did you really come in her for some counseling, or do you want to do it like old times?" 6she says devilishly, mimicing Katrina perfectly.
* Xanatos`Durran frowns, eyeing her. "Cut it out, you and I both know you aren't Katrina." Despite the fact she is acting like Katrina, Durran can still feel in his gut that she isn't.
<Ceres> "She isn't."
<Ceres> "Sometimes you just have to believe Cole..."
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis expression goes back to the blank look she normally wears, since she doesn't use facial expressions unless provoked. "Isn't this what you all want? Katrina? I can feel it coming off everyone in waves, demanding to have Katrina back." 6She hops off the table, stridering over to Durran and running her fingers up his chest, a grin back. "So...here she is."
<Xanatos`Durran> It isn't the same. And it never will be. *his face is cold and he seems to be staring at nothing*
* Chad`Winters looks over at Zeph, his body stiffening up slightly more as if he's returning back to his old self.
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis goes back to her blank look again, irritated by something. She steps aside. "I have work to do." 6She opens the door to the meeting room to leave.
<Xanatos`Durran> I would like to talk to you. *he turn to look at her*
<DeathStar> <Zephyr> I think everything will be okay for you, Chad. 6She says knowingly. "I must check on Ariel. I will see you later." 6She bows, heading off.
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis turns to look at him.
<Chad`Winters> Thank you Zephyr, I'm glad to have made friends of you.
<`Cole> Believing blindly in something will only get you killed. Martyrs are nothing in this world.
<DeathStar> 6* Zephyr smiles at him as she glances over her shoulder, and then rounds a corner.
* Xanatos`Durran glances at the open door.
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis closes it, as if knowing what he wants.
* Chad`Winters turns walking off down the hallway, heading towards the Hanger.
<Xanatos`Durran> I think we should talk about what you plan to do here. I was going to ask if you thought you could imitate Kat but it is apparent that you can. So, then I guess we should talk more about what your schedule will be. Alright?
<DeathStar> <Erevis> Fine. 6She walks over, sitting down on the table like Katrina would, almost unconsciously now, since she's obviously just there to follow orders.
* Red_Fox smiles, heading to the security room
* Xanatos`Durran pulls out the two apples and sets them down on the table, then places the cup of jello on the table as well. "Even though Zephyr doesn't need food, she still eats jello, I thought maybe you might like its taste as well." He slides it toward her. "I would like for you to return to my room after you finish with your work."
<DeathStar> <Erevis> I understand.
<Chad`Winters> <Shiva> *continues punching against it, sweat beginning to bead on her brow*
<Xanatos`Durran> I figure most will believe you are Katrina, but there are some that might not and they could potentially blow your cover, Ceres is one of thohse people."
* Ceres sighs and sits back, "It's not that wasy Cole... she's my friend..."
<DeathStar> <Erevis> Should I kill her mental synapsis and leave her a vegetable?
* Xanatos`Durran eyes her. "No. Just try to avoid her if you can. I don't want you hurting anyone, Katrina never would."
<DeathStar> <Erevis> Then I shall not harm anyone. 6She states neutrally.
* Chad`Winters steps into his Hanger, pausing for a second as he looks around. He then moves over towards his desk and sits down, booting up his terminal.
* `Cole frowns, "I'm a logical person Ceres. I don't follow my heart I follow my logic, and it tells me that this god is nothing but trouble, and the try and get Katrina back would cause this station more trouble than it needs right now. With everyone hiding things from each other, I fear we have little time left here anyway."
* Xanatos`Durran takes one of the apples into his hand and pulls it up, taking a bite out of it. "Do you hate me?" He says suddenly looking at her.
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis pauses, obviously caught off guard. Despite her ability to read his mind, the question caught her off guard. "I...do not hate you."
* Ceres sighs and rubs her face, "It's John's sister damnit!"
* Chad`Winters begins running through his messages as he pushes himself back into his old routine.
* `Cole stares at Ceres neutrally. "And John is nothing but a rebel. Her being his sister gives her no royalties."
* Xanatos`Durran stares at his apple as he thinks, "I figured you would. For being part of the group that ruined your awakening."
<DeathStar> <Erevis> I... am able to hate you all. 6She says simply, grabbing the other apple. "I am late for work." 6She moves to leave, if allowed
<DeathStar> (unable)
* Xanatos`Durran watches her go. "Don't do anything to cause trouble. And i'll see you later." he stands and winks at her. He is acting odd to her, just like whenever they first got back to the station.
<Ceres> Ceres> The universe was built on Rebels, Revolutions are what the name states, the cycle of change.
<Ceres> NRP: o.O
<Red_Fox> NRP: ?
<Ceres> NRP: I aliased
<Red_Fox> NRP: I noticed :P
<DeathStar> 6* Erevis steps into the office, then breaks out a smile and begins to chat with her co-workers, laughing and acting just like Katrina would. She glances out of the corner of her eye at Xanatos back in the room
* Xanatos`Durran frowns lightly and stands, he is once again that naturally calm Durran as he moves to leave.
<`Cole> Do not mix Earth's history with the rest of the universe. Rebels are people that feel their ideas are better, and usually they are wrong. Rebels are people that die for things they believe in, and yet their deaths are usually in vain, no one ever remembers their names.
<DeathStar> Session Ends
Session Close: Mon Jun 05 23:12:17 2006